The Next Chapter

Today’s blog post is brought to you by the seven dwarfs

and the Little Engine that Could

Both of these chants were stuck in my head as I started my day today.

The day that I have been dreading since my positive pregnancy test in April 2011 arrived today. I went back to work.

Today was both a little easier and a little more hard than I had expected. I cried when I left, but I had a happy 7-year-old in my backseat who was so excited to get dropped off at school again instead of riding the bus. Cole put a smile back on my face. I remained strong as I arrived at work. The day flew by at work. It was good to catch up with people I’ve missed. It was good to get things organized that I knew were waiting for me when I got back. While catching up and organizing, my arms missed my baby more than anything. I missed his weight in my arms. I missed his drool on my shoulder. I missed hearing all of his noises. I missed his cries. I really missed his chatter. Chet has become so vocal this week. He talks nonstop. I don’t think I could have done it without breaking down if Chet wasn’t staying with my mom while I’m at work. THANK YOU MOM. If Chet can’t be with Mom or Dad, Grandma is certain the next best thing.

With both the good and the bad, it is such a relief to get it over with it. I’ve been dreading the first day back. It is now behind me. We’ve made the transition. It is now up to me to embrace each day and make the most of the time I have with my boys when I get home from work. This new chapter in my life is about quality not quantity.

I’m learning as a I go, but I made it through today.

And there is nothing better than coming home to your baby boy. He let out the biggest squeal when he saw me today. He half laughed, half cried. It felt like he was so happy to see me he didn’t know if he should laugh or cry. He then spent the rest of the evening in my arms, talking to me, and enjoying lots of mama kisses. I am one loved mama.