Date night with The Avett Brothers

Tonight the Hubby and I are breaking out of our normal weekly routine. We are heading out with a few friends to see one of our favorite bands in concert, The Avett Brothers.

As I go out and enjoy my evening, enjoy the lyrics and a YouTube video of my favorite song – A Gift for Melody Lane.

I wanna get back
I wanna get square
I wanna get back on the hopes and dreams that I had
That the good lord above us can spare
Like that actor said
I don’t wanna lose heart
I don’t wanna get beat beat down by the big big world
I’ll quit before I even start.

Lord, I just want my life to be true (I just want my life to be true)
And I just want my heart you be true (just want my heart to be true)
I just want my words to be true (I just want my words)
I want my soul to feel brand new

I wanna hold hands
Yeah, and I wanna make love
And I wanna keep running all day, and all night
Even when my mind tell my body “that’s enough”
And I wanna stand up
Yeah, and I wanna stand tall
If I ever have a son, if I ever have a daughter
I don’t wanna tell them that I didn’t give my all

And I just wan my life to be true (I just want my life to be true)
And I just want my heart you be true (just want my heart to be true)
I just want my words to be true (I just want my words)
I want my soul to feel brand, brand new
Like a fresh coat of paint
We could make it anything but blue
Anything but blue

Now, when your dreams start saying
“I can’t come true, you’d be better off without me”
Don’t let them go
Don’t let them go

I don’t wanna go broke
Not from one bad deal
I don’t wanna be up all night crying in my hands for a girl
That isn’t even real

Lord, I just want my life to be true (I just want my life to be true)
And I just want my heart you be true (just want my heart to be true)
And I just want my words to be true (I just want my words to be true)
And I just want my song to be true (Just want my song to be true)
And I just want my heart you be true (just want my heart to be true)
And I just want my heart you be true (just want my heart to be true)
And I just want my words to be true (I just want my words to be true)
And I just want my heart you be true (just want my heart to be true)
And I just want my life to be true (I just want my life to be true)
And I just want my song to be true (Just want my song to be true)
And I just want my life to be true (I just want my life to be true)
I want my soul to feel brand new
I want my soul to feel brand new

During marathon training last year, I’d listen to this song every Saturday morning before I meet my group. Cheesy? Maybe! But I love it.

Finding balance in imbalance

My friend (yes! I call everyone who’s blog I read my friend!), Megan, posted on her blog today a post that took the words right out of my mouth. It’s one of those posts that makes you want to cry and say I’m sorry while cheering and congratulating her all at the same time. She is also pregnant. She also loves running.  I think everyone should go read her post – read it here.

Being pregnant is an amazing experience. I truly believe that all woman who get pregnant are the lucky ones in their relationship. We get to know our baby more intimately 40 weeks prior to their dad. We get to talk to them all day long. We get to feel them moving. We know their patterns, their habits, and a bit of their personality before the sweet baby is even born.

Alex bonding with his new brother

While we are the lucky ones, we are also the ones who make the sacrifices throughout the pregnancy. Dads don’t have to give up alcohol or foods or sleep…..Their daily pattern doesn’t have to change.  I’m lucky enough to have a husband who doesn’t complain (too much) about my tossing and turning in bed. He rubs my back when it hurts. He rubs my feet nightly. His life has certainly changed since I got pregnant. And he deserves a medal for dealing with my moods. I was moody before the baby.  I’m even more moody with the baby in my belly.

Pregnancy is a world that is constantly out of balance. For someone who is always striving to find balance in life, I’m learning to laugh at and embrace all the imbalances that come along with pregnancy.  I know I can’t look for something that doesn’t exist.  Being happily pregnant means I’m coming to terms with unexpected and uncontrollable situations.

I’m not ready to give up the constant movement in my belly. I love being able to rub my belly all day long.

What am ready to do again with out a pregnant belly? Run. Drink a glass of wine. Have sex with my husband without this baby in between us (yes. I just shared that on my blog!). I’m ready for my back/hip to feel normal. I’m ready to roll over in my sleep without waking up.

Until I find the new balance of life with a new baby, I’m trying to laugh at my pregnant running waddle. I’m trying to not laugh during sex. I’ll admit it. It can be comical sometimes. I’ll be okay without a glass of wine on Friday nights. I don’t think I’ll every be happy about my hip or my sleeping patterns.  I guess those are a fair trade for the constant movement in my belly.

99 more days until my due date…..

Pregnancy Perk: New appreciation for pre-baby skinny body!

What’s in a Name? Baby Addition!

Naming something or someone is a very hard task – for me. When I decided to start blogging, I took a week to begin because I couldn’t think of a title for my blog. It had to be good. A name is a big commitment. And this was just the title of my blog. Naming a child is much more difficult, stressful, and comes with a lot of pressure to get it right.

Baby Cole. Oh I love that face!

When I was pregnant with Cole, I had a girl named picked out from day one. A boy name….that was a different story. I really wanted to name him Parker. His dad said no. He really wanted to name him Tristan. I said no. I read baby name book after baby name book looking for a boy name we would agree on. I don’t think I ever put the books down. One day while I was on the phone with my sister (and looking through my baby name book), I spotted the name Cole. Perfect. We both loved it. The boy name was selected. Cole is most certainly a Cole. We like to laugh about his almost-names now. He likes Parker because it makes him think of Spider Man – Peter Parker.  We really laugh about Tristan. Kristy, Christian, and Cole is complicated enough. Can you imagine if we were Kristy, Christian, and Tristan! HA!

When we found out we were pregnant with Mister Moo, I had a girl name picked out from day one. (Nope! I’m not sharing. Who knows? Maybe there will be a Miss in our future one day.) For boy names, neither one of us had a preference about one name or another. We just knew we didn’t know what to name a boy.  When we were told we were indeed having a boy, the pressure was on. I wanted to call him something. Mister Moo is fun and cute, but he deserves a real name. I originally liked Finn. I liked Sawyer and Anderson. They were the top 3 contenders going into the ultrasound. While I still like all 3 names, as soon as I saw Mister Moo’s face I knew they didn’t belong to my baby.

And I love this little face too!

Christian’s only requirement for the boy name is that his name fit a boy who wears flannel shirts. Our boy needs to at least sound like he loves the great outdoors. My only request is that the name sound good with Cole. I tend to favor one syllable names, but we were not ruling out 2 or 3 syllable names. We also plan on using Christian as the middle name. The first name has to sound good with Christian Maute.

Clint became our next contender. We tried it out. It fit – a little – UNTIL Christian made a horrible joke while we were driving to dinner. I don’t remember what it was, but it related Clint to the word Clint with a “N” – I’ll let you figure that one out! Needless to say, I can not name my baby boy Clint knowing there is the potential for some horrible high school jokes.

Finn

Sawyer

Anderson

Clint

After a lot of thinking and stressing, we finally have a name. We’ve tried it out. It has stuck. In fact, I think it is perfect.

Without further ado, let me introduce you to Mister Moo himself…….

Chet Christian Maute

Sounds like he should wear a flannel shirt? check.

Sounds good with Cole? check.

Sounds good with Christian Maute? check.

My Grandpa in Chester, Wales

And to make me love it even more, it is a family name. My paternal grandfather is Chester Werden. He is technically my dad’s step dad, but he is my dad’s dad by every definition of the word. My Grandpa Werden married my Grandmother when my dad was 5 years old. He raised and loved my dad. My dad loved him. (sound like another step dad/step son relationship? Christian and Cole?)

Before we committed to the name Chet, I wanted to make sure my dad was accepting of the idea. My grandfather passed away when I was in elementary school. I have some amazing memories of him – a movie date to see American Tail is at the top of that list. My memories of him are fragmented happy memories. I adored him. What I don’t remember from my childhood is the dynamics between the adults in my life. I wanted to make sure I didn’t insult anyone by naming our baby Chet. Did he and my dad really have the relationship I remember? Was he really as amazing as I remember him to be?   My dad replied by saying he thinks my grandfather would be honored. He was a great man, and my dad likes the idea as well. He also reminded me of the fact that my grandfather always had a knife in his pocket. Do you know who else always has a knife in his pocket? Christian. My dad said Christian and his knife has always reminded him of his father.

The more we’ve embraced Chet as our baby boys name, the more it fits. It meets all of our criteria. It reminds me of generations of great step dads. Somehow the name Chet has makes our family feel even more complete. The name Chet has become symbolic for all my hopes and dreams for this little boy in my belly.

Mister Chet Christian Maute…..I hope you love the world as much as your brother. I hope you breathe in fresh air and feel alive. I hope you are rooted to your family and the love that created you. I hope you find a place in the world that makes you happy. You are already the perfect addition to our family.

Rain Rain…

…Go away (except I’m secretly in love with days like today). I wouldn’t want it to be my every day life, but a chilly day filled with rain is welcome in my world after this summer’s heat.

We are officially prepping the baby room for paint. Christian’s dresser has been moved out. Our bedroom has been rearranged to accommodate another dresser. The closet is about to be emptied. All that is left is baby stuff. I also managed to clean nearly the entire house today. I love the feeling of a clean house. Paint will be picked up tomorrow morning. Let the fun begin.

I am now enjoying a lazy Saturday evening. Cole is sleeping at his buddy’s house. Christian has rediscovered the world of video games (yes! Christian! I’m telling on your silly hunting game addiction. Fortunately for me, his video game playing days happen only about twice a year. His hunting addiction only happens in the virtual world also. Thank goodness. Poor Deer.) I have wasted a lot of my time playing Words with Friends and searching pinterest.

Today’s search….SOUP.

Is it really wasted time when it inspires dinner? Here is what I found. I made a quick trip to grocery store, modified the recipe slightly, and dinner should be ready in an hour. (click the picture for a link to the website)

Creamy Crockpot Chicken and Broccoli over rice

My modified version calls for a baked potato (not rice). I will let you know how it turns out, but I’m already excited to eat it. Creamy chicken with broccoli over a baked potato on a rain day? Yes please!

Yes. My dog has a rain coat (thanks to his Aunt Nicole). Yes. He loves it! Yes. He is a he. No. He doesn't lift his leg to pee.

If pictures of my dog peeing in the rain doesn’t keep you coming back to my blog for more…

………a baby reveal just might show up on my blog tomorrow! Hello My name is……..

Dinner Update:

Dinner was AMAZING! Definitely try that recipe. I’ve also added the blog to my blog roll.  It has so many good yummy recipes. I’m going to have fun cooking this fall.

We put our soup/stew creation over a baked potato. I put half the baked potato in a big bowl and covered it with the soup/stew topped with cheese. It was the perfect rainy day comfort food.

our creation! (Christian added some sour cream to his mix.)

An accidental 7 mile run(ish)

Just throwing my running stuff in a bag this morning made me happy. I loved collecting my shoes, shorts skirt, tank top, socks, garmin, iPod, headband, and water bottle. Everything was there ready for my afternoon run. I loved it even more when I walked outside this morning and it was in the 60s.

I meet a friend from my running group at the trail before my run. Even though we are nowhere near the same pace (she hangs out comfortable at 8 minute miles), it was nice to see a familiar face before my run. We walked and chatted for a few minutes before we she we took of running. She was out of sight within minutes. I was comfortably hanging out at my 12 minute mile pace. Going into my run, I had zero expectations for myself. I figured I’d run the trail to the restroom, pee, and run back. I also thought I remembered that the trail was 2.5 miles long (it is not!). I was just happy being outside in my running shoes run/walking and breathing in the amazing fall air.

About a mile into my run, my belly got heavy. Today is the first time (minus the last 4 miles of the half marathon) that I have ever really felt pregnant while running. I’ve felt bigger. I’ve felt slower. I’ve never really felt pregnant. Today I felt HUGE. The baby was heavy.

This looks like a bathroom! Right?

Around mile 2 my bladder was screaming. I had to pee. BAD. According to my memory, I should only have about a 1/2 mile to the restroom. My memory isn’t great. The trail is actually closer to 3.5 miles. My friend Courtney was heading back to this car at this point. When I passed her, she so kindly turned around and ran with me towards the restrooms. It definitely took my mind off of my screaming bladder. Thank you Courtney!  At mile 3.3 I happily arrived at the bathroom.

The bathroom was closed. NOOOOOOO! So I did whatever other normal runner would do. I headed off onto a side trail that had less traffic, no bicycles and a lot more trees. When I felt confident that the coast was clear, I found a big tree and peed in nature. 🙂 Fortunately no one else came down the trail to find a big pregnant lady bare bottomed squatting behind a tree. Three people did show up not even a minute after I had my pants pulled back up!

The rest of the run back to my car was great (minus the fact that I forgot my body glide. Hello chaffed thighs. ouch!). I really just enjoyed being out there. I love not worrying about time or race schedules or run/walk ratios. I just did what felt good. I worked up a sweat. I had fun.  I got back to my car at 6.8 miles. Since I like whole numbers, I ran the last .20 so I can see 7.0 on my watch. I had no intention of running 7 miles today, but I’m so glad I did. I got past my 3 mile mental block (when I started to wonder if my days of pregnant running where over), and I got to the place I love most when I run. The place where I don’t care about pace or mileage. I just enjoyed being a trail, running, walking, breathing,sweating, and saying hello to everyone who went by.

I hope I can hold onto this little piece of happiness until Mister Moo arrives in December. Thank you body and baby for letting me run during my 25th week of pregnancy.

Happy Mama
Happy Baby! (my belly button popped this week too!)